A Reminder...

Been another long while since I posted. This happened just these last four weeks...

I met a girl on Tinder (good fucking job, man!). We go out. She's dope. So we go out some more times, and I find out she's super dope. And we talk every day and I understand she's probably the source of dope. Plus, she likes kissing me. And then one day she says she sees no future for us. She says she was lonely and I was "SO avaialble". She rips my heart out.  But she's still dope.

I skipped a lot of details. The details aren't the point of this post. The point of this post is to remind me that it is OK to be hurt for a little while, but then I need to get back to being not hurt and make sure I don't let the hurt harden my heart.

This is a reminder to myself always be "SO available". Never waste time trying to defend my heart. Never keep someone at a distance. Never regret the decisions I make. Always dive in head-first. Always wear my heart on my sleeves. Never stop doing the things that have gotten me hurt so many times. Never be anything less than lover I am now. Love is a high-risk, high-reward game, and I'm gonna take some losses. But when I win, I'm gonna win BIG! I'm going to find someone who will be eternally grateful that I'm "SO available" and in return she will make herself "SO available" to me. At least, I hope that's how it goes.

And sometimes you meet someone so amazing that you want to stay friends even after they cut you down to the white meat. That's OK, too. Sometimes that's what you need. You're gonna be alright, Josh.

50 points for reading. Bonus 100 points if you've been hurt. 100 more if you didn't let the hurt change you. 500 points if you're one of the ones that hurt me because you're probably a terrible person, but I love you, too, so there's that.

JOSH, THE SHERM